I Should Not Give a DAMN Care Of It

I don't like the way they look at me.
I don't like the way they laugh behind me.
I don't like the way they mocking me.
I don't like their cynical talk.

This is my own lost. My sorrow and my bad luck. I just wanna shout out loud, "Mind ur own bussiness people! i'm not asking for help, okay??" so why you keep talking behind me?
Kalian gga usah lah repot2 basa basi buat nolong aku (gga usah juga bikin acara 'koin untuk miss ting', kan lagi heboh tuh) . I can take care of myself.

Daripada kalian pura2 baik, tapi kalian merasa terbebani dengan masalahku. Atau dengan kehadiranku, kalian semua merasa tidak senang. .But guys, relax coz i won't be long here.
After i pay all my debt, aku angkat segera angkat kaki. Karena aku tak ingin menjadi faktor "bad mood " kalian. Aku tak ingin menjadi sasaran kemarahan. Aku sadar, aku cuma manusia menyebalkan yg tak berarti apa2. Tapi aku ini punya rasa. .Aku manusia, bukan benda mati yg bisa seenaknya disakiti dan tak dianggap. Aku bisa merasakan kalau kalian sangat membenciku.

I was try to keep positive think, tapi perlakuan kalian membuat ku sadar. Reality itu tak selamanya soal hal2 yg positif. Reality itu pahit. Reality itu kalian sangat membenciku. But what can i do to change all that?

Tapi taukah kalian, aku juga tak ingin kena musibah seperti ini. Bagiku uang segitu sangat berarti, karena aku bukan orang kaya. Jika kalian membenciku karena kesalahanku, please. . Try to understand. I dont want this. If i could turn back time *which is never happen*, i choose to resign right after my wedding. So i will never get this kinda lost.

Please. .Please. . Respect me as a human being. Coz i don't hurt u, like u always did.
U may hurt me , but please respect me. Respect me as a human. Or i should not give a damn care of it.